{"id":38091,"date":"2014-07-22T21:48:19","date_gmt":"2014-07-22T13:48:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/?p=38091"},"modified":"2014-07-22T23:59:23","modified_gmt":"2014-07-22T15:59:23","slug":"when-youre-not-where-you-want-to-be","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/2014\/07\/22\/when-youre-not-where-you-want-to-be\/","title":{"rendered":"When you&#8217;re not where you want to be"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter size-large wp-image-38107\" src=\"http:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-content\/uploads\/pullingupaplant3-560x791.jpg\" alt=\"Pulling a Plant - Eleanor Taylor\" width=\"560\" height=\"791\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-content\/uploads\/pullingupaplant3-560x791.jpg 560w, https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-content\/uploads\/pullingupaplant3.jpg 670w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 560px) 100vw, 560px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>The thought about being a landscape architect never once crossed my mind as I was growing up.<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t spend my younger days thinking about how great it could be if I could be one \u2013 to spend my time designing gardens, parks and pockets of greens; carrying T-squares, measuring tape, wearing a hardhat and safety boot\u00a0and all. So what made me write that down when it came to choosing what I wanted to do in university?<\/p>\n<p>It was simple \u2013 I didn&#8217;t want to be stuck in a lab doing\u00a0experiments (that&#8217;s all\u00a0I thought\u00a0scientists-to-be did back then). And I didn&#8217;t want to spend my time purely in lecture halls hashing out theories and being spoon-fed formulas. I wanted to learn about art and design, and that course was my one and only ticket.<\/p>\n<p>Oh sure, I could hear you ask \u2013 why not just go to a college where you can pay to learn exactly what you want? I got an entry into the local university; and where I come from, to get that was as good as if you had struck lottery. The price of a degree at a private college could cost up to 10 times more than it did at a local university. I wasn&#8217;t about to go in debt by choosing to go to a private college, and I didn&#8217;t want to\u00a0let my parents worry about\u00a0funding expensive tuition fees only to get a piece of paper I might not end up using in the end (I was being realistic).<\/p>\n<p>So I chose the best route to go about it. I knew I liked art and design \u2013 and if I were to chose a course within that university, the only one that was available to me was landscape architecture. I could learn about the fundamentals of art and design in a studio environment, I had access to art teachers and designers, I had more flexibility in how I scheduled things (studio-based classes meant that you had plenty of time to experiment with ideas); and I didn&#8217;t have to worry about money so much.\u00a0I told myself I would\u00a0figure out the rest later.<\/p>\n<p>Four years later, when it came to deciding what I wanted to do after I graduated, I gave myself 6 months \u2013 it\u00a0was when we had to be an intern at a real consultancy firm. The rules I gave myself were simple: give it my best shot, and if I still didn&#8217;t feel that it suited me, then I&#8217;m free to do whatever that I wanted. Six months passed \u2013 the boss&#8217; firm passed me with flying colours and\u00a0told others that I was one of the best interns he&#8217;s ever worked with. I left, happy.<\/p>\n<p>It was also the last time I was a landscape architect.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why did you give up your degree?&#8221; was the common question I had in that first year after I graduated. &#8220;It was four years \u2013 all wasted, down the drain,&#8221; said others. Even my father was at a loss \u2013 he couldn&#8217;t understand why I would give up being a landscape architect. I could have a good job, a stable career. A title. I could be a professional. I could be Amy Ng, <em>the<\/em>\u00a0Landscape Architect. I didn&#8217;t blame them at all \u2013 they didn&#8217;t know why I did it.<\/p>\n<p>But I did.<\/p>\n<p>Because when I went into the university to do\u00a0a course on landscape architecture, I wasn&#8217;t looking to just be a landscape architect. I was looking to <strong><em>learn<\/em><\/strong>. I absorbed everything like a sponge \u2013 even the stuff that people didn&#8217;t care about. I inhaled snippets of knowledge and sniffed it out whenever I could. Lecturers were held hostage as I left them a barrage of questions. Little wonder that when it came time to decide to narrow down a focus for my final project, I went with campus design. I loved learning <em>that<\/em>\u00a0much.<\/p>\n<p>I went to the library often. I didn&#8217;t just go there to scoop up the latest architecture tomes \u2013 I went in to borrow books on art, illustration, cooking, exercise, writing\u00a0and\u00a0technology; all because I was curious. I maxed out my book limit every time because I there were so many things I wanted to know. I didn&#8217;t know where all of this digging\u00a0would lead me, but I knew that <strong>deciding on a destination just because I was handed a ticket\u00a0seemed silly.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Instead, I wanted to make my own fate. I didn&#8217;t know what I wanted to be when I grew up. And when I look at myself right now I&#8217;m still figuring it out \u2013 just like everyone else. I try hard to not\u00a0confine myself to anyone else&#8217;s definition of success, and to stay true to myself by constantly asking myself what I want. Being happy was always my goal \u2013 and I&#8217;ve been incredibly lucky on that front. Somedays I still pinch\u00a0myself\u00a0to see if I&#8217;m dreaming.<\/p>\n<p>So for\u00a0those who feel as though they&#8217;ve been handed a curveball in life, or that they aren&#8217;t in the place\u00a0that they want to be \u2013 I want to tell you this: <strong>you can&#8217;t control the\u00a0cards you&#8217;ve been dealt, but you sure can change how you choose to deal with\u00a0it.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Oh, and no\u00a0one ever asks me about that degree anymore.<\/p>\n<p><strong>SHARE WITH ME:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Have you ever been in a less than ideal situation? How did you make the best of it? Share your story with me below in the comments!\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><em>** NOTE: This post isn&#8217;t mean to<span style=\"color: #222222;\">\u00a0discourage people to not go to private university or art school \u2013 I think that if you can then it&#8217;s great, but more importantly, for whatever reason at all that you can&#8217;t, it shouldn&#8217;t be the excuse that you\u00a0use to not be able to get ahead.\u00a0My experience and my views are strictly<\/span>\u00a0personal \u2013 \u00a0being where I am (Malaysia), this is how I chose to deal with my lot, so it bears repeating that my\u00a0challenges\u00a0may be different from yours.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n<h6>[Illustration by <a href=\"http:\/\/www.eleanortaylor.co.uk\/Pulling-a-Plant\" target=\"_blank\">Eleanor Taylor<\/a>]<\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p> &#8230; <a title=\"When you&#8217;re not where you want to be\" class=\"read-more\" href=\"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/2014\/07\/22\/when-youre-not-where-you-want-to-be\/\" aria-label=\"More on When you&#8217;re not where you want to be\">Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":38107,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_generate-full-width-content":""},"categories":[118,135,123,214,92,222],"tags":[],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38091"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=38091"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38091\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":38113,"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38091\/revisions\/38113"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/38107"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=38091"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=38091"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.pikaland.com\/staging\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=38091"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}